Have been working these few days to earn some money for my Chinese New Year clothes. It was really fun and dirty. Quite a lot has happened past few days.

My Grandpa was advice to go for for a heart bypass surgery by the doctor. And if he does so, his leg would have to be amputated to use a piece nerve to do the surgery. It will be quite a risky operation. Hopefully my family chose not to do the operation. As of right now, we are awaiting for further details from the doctor for what they have to say for my Grandpa's situation.

This year's Christmas was indeed different. Though I did not manage to bring any friends with me, but I manage to plant seeds into people's lives once again. During the gift exchange, I gave a note book and received a yellow lanyard in return. And when Guang Xiang sow a banana and received a monkey last year, his sister too received a monkey this year. By the way, I was the one that received the banana last year.

As for my Christmas, I was rotting at home with nothing to do. To kill time, I played my guitar, watch crazy videos, but none was dirty, and sing Christmas carols all alone at home.

26hours left for the year 2008 and it will be a whole new year. I will be celebrating the countdown with my cell group, staying overnight at east coast park.

I am down with my contacts, yet I still cannot reach out to anyone. But I still believe that God is going to something thing great and awesome with me. I have promise God that I will be the spark to the revival in Ping Yi and I can do it because I got God with me. Amen.

Stayed at home for these two days and everything was boring. How I hoped for someone to ask me out or someone willing to go out with me. But no one called me, neither did anyone want to go out with me as they are either working or just not bothered to come out.

I really thank God for the Westies in the cell group. They allow me to witness what a revival is and also amazed by their passion for God. What I can say is that they have written a chapter in my life, and they are still writing it. Jurong West people, God is going to take you guys up to the next level to do greater things than you have ever seen or done. It is going to be tough, but God has made you tougher. Go for it!

Visited Grandpa, but he does not look very well. He has been coughing all the way. I did not have the chance to talk to him, not to say even praying for him. He has been chatting with my uncle who just came back from Indonesia. I guess I will just come back some other day to pray for him.

After visiting my Grandpa , I have dinner with my family. Everything went well, but I am still worried about Grandpa. Hope that he will rest well tonight.

Today's candlelight service was great and magnificent. The whole service was ignited with thousands of candles. There were lots of friends, there were even Natalie's parents. Someday, my parents will surely come.

The Christmas party will be postpone to Wednesday. I am kinda please with it cause I can go visit my Grandpa tomorrow.

My Grandpa went out of ICU today. I was really worried about him for the past few days. I really hope that I can pray for him tomorrow.

Today's Christmas Party at Wai Yin MaMa's group was crazy. I even injured myself when we were playing "Atom & Molecules." Everything was held in Dayan's house for Wai Yin MaMa's group. A lot of friends also came today, too bad my friends were too busy to come and they missed out all the fun.

We watched "My Hope Singapore" video and it was great. It was a successful turnout. Lets pray that they will be back for Christmas service.

My grandpa is still in ICU today. But I do not have anytime to visit him these few days due to Christmas preparations.
Sorry Grandpa.

I was suppose to meet up with Joshua at 1.30pm today, ended up waking up late at 1pm cause my Dad went to switch off my alarm, and took a cab to school. We are going to take our N' level results today, yet it does not appear so to me. When I reached school, I saw Alvin instantly, though I could hardly recognize him. He have changed quite a little, but just not knowing what was the change. And as usual, I will go meet "168 Bros" before we go up together.

We went up , go through the boring talk and took our results. I did fairly well for my N' level and my aggregate is 5 points. It was not to my expectation to get this well. English - 2, Combined Humanities - 4, Additional Mathematics- 4, Mathematics - 1, Science(Physics/Chemistry) - 2, Principles of accounts- 4. This result surprised everyone, including myself and the teachers, as my attitude towards studies is not very pleasant. I will always be sleeping in class and fail to hand in any work. There is no way I am able to beat my friends. Getting 5 points is not into consideration. Truly this is a work of God.

I was thinking last night that if I am not able to make it to Sec 5, what ITE courses will I go. I even prayed to God to allow me to go to Sec 5. But yet after I got my result, I was in a dilemma of whether or not should I go to Sec 5. Mdm Anisa told me, "According to your results, you should go to Sec 5. But by looking at my attitude and behavior, I should give a deep thinking to it." These words did not affect me very much, but it does make sense. I went to talk to Yong Xiu and Dayan about it, and they do not encourage me to go ITE as it is a waste of time, and there is no guarantee. Then I remembered, I prayed to God last night to allow me to be promoted to Sec 5, so I am able to be the salt and light in the school, and more importantly, bringing revival to Ping Yi. God has now blessed me with the results as I have asked, but am I going to take it? So I have decide to go to sec 5 next year.

I am suppose to be happy today, but received a bad news. My grandpa was just admitted to hospital this morning cause he complained that he is having some breathing difficulty in the morning. I am really worried about my grandpa and I heard from my mum that he is unconscious. I was praying for my grandpa on my to Riverwalk for prayer meeting.

During the prayer meeting, Bedok North and Jurong West shared their testimonials on their revivals. I believe that Ping Yi's revival is near. Amen!

Was tidying up my room last night when I came across all my old memories. The warmth and joy still stick within them, memories that I can never forget. It is also the time when I came across Jesus in my life. Those period were the best and can never be replaced. Truly I thought, in every area of my life, God has never once forsake me and neither He ever will.

I came across a small book that was given to me last time. Inside I wrote," A vision without working is daydream, but working without vision is nightmare." Yet I have forgotten about this. I lost my vision and I do not know when did it go. Did I do something that my vision ran away? I have never thought of myself losing the way I was going. A vision is the light and way in which push us to go further. I am too caught up with the present and the problems that I have neglected everything else.

I have been sleeping late these few days, turning in at around 5am-6am. But I get to enjoy these times as I get to understand myself more and also drawing closer to Him. I thank God for the Jurong West people, they really do brought me uncountable numbers of wonderful times. Thought I am not with them, just by looking at them allow me to feel the joy.

I will be getting my N' level results tomorrow. I doubt if I am able to go to Sec 5. Shindy was asking me to compete with the all time top student, Robert, next year if I am able to go to Sec 5. But I have no passion for studying. Perhaps I will try to take Robert on as a friendly competition.

Christmas is coming.......

When was the last time I updated my blog? Not so sure about it. Have to apologize as I did not have anytime or chance to use to computer. Sometimes, I feel asleep before I finish updating my blog. Is it not ridiculous? But I will still try to update as much as possible. I'm also aware that my blog is very boring due to the lack of music and pictures. But the reason I do not want to put any music is cause it might interrupt the songs that you are listening. And I do not have a camera, therefore there are no pictures. If I were to have !, I will surely post hundreds of them.

I went to Sini's chalet a few days back, it is actually past midnight when I got there, so I can call it Friday. There was chili crab, bee hoon and some barbecued food that were left for me. I felt so blessed. The chili crab was delicious, and I learn how to eat a crab. It is not difficult actually, just that I do not have a good interaction with it and ended up having the gravy all over my hands and face.

We then took a morning walk at Pasir Ris Park. I almost step on a snake, to be more precise, a head of a snake that is alive. It was just a few milimetres away from the sole of my shoe. I turely thank God for that.

I will update more the next time.

My first night sleeping back at my dad's place did not go very well. All it did was taking away the headache I had last night in return with a present for me, a present that ruined my whole day, a cold. Thank God that I'm all better now.

Asia Conference is tomorrow and I have chosen the Elective courses that I will be going, other than the ones which the cell group will be going, which is "Youth Ministry", "Building a Healthy Self-image", and "Effective Counseling". The courses that I will be taking will be listed below, with their reasons under it.

Social Etiquette & Personal Grooming
It was Guang Xiang that encourage me to come for this course as he said that people paid big bucks just to attend this kind of course. I am not really sure about this but I do believe that social etiquette is really important in situations where you get to meet people with different status. It helps you to interact with people in a more proper and comfortable way.

By helping you to interact with people, you may better communicate with someone with a better composure. It helps you in your business as you speak with clients, your confidence and evangelising. However, did I not learn them in school? Well, I guess it is better to learn something more.

Songwriting For Praise & Worship
This is something new to me as I have a few tunes beating in my heart for quite sometime. I have actually written a worship song and I felt the the joy and the heart of the song.

Art of Worship Leading
Singing for God has always been my passion. I believe that worshipping God is not worship the worship song, but worshipping God is to lift your heart and voices to sing for Him and to Him. It is said that music is the soul of men. It touches the heart and goes deep within. Worship allows you to open up the heavens and reach into the presence of God.

There are some other courses that I would like to take part in. These are "Effective Evangelism", "Cell Group Leadership", "Men's Ministry", "Adversity Quotient & Emotional Quotient", "Coping With Depression", "Helping Someone Break An Addiction", "Dynamics of A Contemporary Worship Band". But too bad I can only take 6 courses. I will have to wait till the next Asia Conference.

Back Again..

Hi everyone, I am back to update my blog again. I am just hoping that there will be someone viewing it. And once again, it is going to be boring.

My Time Staying Alone At My Mum's Place
It was really terrific to be living alone at my mother's place as I get to do whatever I want, having really nice meals and most importantly, smoke-free environment. I also fell in love with the bathing products that my mum uses, I mean the are seriously suitable for every part of my body. I think I might getting those products sometime.

But too bad there is no internet access at my mum's place, even though there is a laptop for me to play, but it is kinda boring. But the time I spend there is really simple and nice. I played my guitar, watch the television and the movies that my mum has, exploring her house and of course, having a good rest there like never before. Sleeping in there for an hour is as though you slept for hours, that is what I came to realize what it truly mean to rest.

Having said how great and wonderful is the house, the food around the area is also tempting. Every time I went down to get some food, I felt like buying all sorts of dishes. Not that I am so hungry that I can eat a horse burger, but it is just simply the smell, taste and the look of the food all just look so appealing. Perhaps I might exaggerate a little. By the way, my mum is living somewhere near Eunos train station and it is a one room flat, in case you thought I was living in a palace.

My Working Experience With Joshua's Dad
I was working with Joshua's father, together with Joshua, Khairul, Kevin and Daryl, as an installer of Christmas decorations for all Fairprice supermarket. I am not sure if mine is really counted as working as my task was the easiest of all. All I have to do was help carry a little garlands, writing down the amount of items we were using and speaking to the managers. My friends job is a little harder, they were suppose to carry the items, put them up(which includes climbing up the ladder and hammering) and carry them back to the lorry. I guess it is all because Joshua's family think that I am a "tau-hu"(bean curd), soft and delicate.

It was not very easy as we were running on a tight schedule and also fighting for space with the customers. But everything was still fun and all.

There was one night when Kevin brought a laughing gas and we were playing with it on our way home. Everyone was laughing their head off on the back of the lorry except me. Not that I did not try the laughing gas, but it is just that the laughing gas has simply no effect on me no matter how many times they try it on me. But the laughing gas do make me feel light-headed. I felt as though I was dreaming and your senses just tells that I am not recording anything in my memory and it is not reality. Joshua said that it is as though you are drunk and whatever you say during that time will be the truth. Thankfully that laughing gas has no effect on me and I am able to keep my mind clear after a while.

Elements I

N' level will be starting again next week, and I am not really prepared yet. I am getting use to the things around once more, but the problem is that whether I can make it in time. Everything seems to be like a playback of my memories. It stood a test of time where everyone have to go through. Everyone will have a special yet equal destiny, but how would you want to hold it?

How would you want to shape your future? Treasures stood a test of time and pressure. Just like a diamond, being left underground for more than millennium, withstanding all the pressure, and finally, it turn from a useless carbon like charcoal into precious and hardest element, still the same carbon, but as a diamond. Diamond really stood out in the rest of other elements, but can we stand out like it?

Which is the element can be compared to a diamond? Gold perhaps? But gold did not withstand the pressure. It is just being hidden. It stood the pressure but was not change into something different and more magnificent. It stood the same. It was more precious than carbon, but after the test of time, it is carbon(diamond) that beat gold. Which is more precious then?

There are a lot more things I would really like to share, but I will have to wait till the next time. This is just the first part. So do come back the next time, I hope I am able to continue. Good night.

Low in the Spirit..

It have been more than a week, yet I am still very depress and sad. I was suppose to study with some of the cell group members today as Aaron was complaining last night that he have nothing to do today, so I suggested to come out to study together. I asked Chaiern and Jingliang along as the more the merrier. Thus, I let them decide the venue to study and they said that they want to study at City Hall...

I will end here tonight. Do not have the mood to blog.

Sadness and Disappointments

Real sad for these few days. But even so, life still have to go on.

-N' Level Social Studies-

It was actually since Wednesday. I did not do very well for my N' Level Social Studies, or did I? The paper was actually very easy, though the questions that came out was a bit different from what we usually did. However, I did not manage to finish my paper. There was just so much to write about and so little time. Or was it just me that thinks there was a lot to write and not enough time?

But thank God that I remembered to manage my time, though it was not enough. The total duration of the paper was 1hour 30minutes. I allocated 45minutes for each section, so the second it 45minutes have been spent on Source-Based Questions(SBQ), I ignore everything that was not done there and spent the rest of my time concentrating on the Structured Essay Questions(SEQ).

I only managed to do only 2 questions from SBQ out of the four. As for the SEQ, I chose question 2, which was the theme that I was most confident in. But I did not manage to complete both questions. When I was doing question 2a, I looked at the time and found that it is time to do question 2b as the mark is higher and that I might not even pass if I do not change my focus on that question. But still I did not complete that question.

After the paper, "168 Brothers" and I went to the basketball court nearby to play volleyball.

*N' Level English*

It was time for one of my favorite papers. I am not very good in English myself, but just one of the better ones in my class. Paper 1 was easy. I did my usual stuff by first doing the situation writing, follow by the one word question for the composition. The situation writing was not very direct but it was known to most people, including myself, that we were required to write an informal letter. And as for my composition, I felt that I did not do very well myself. The question was "Mistake" and I elaborated it.

Paper 2 was another easy task for me. I did the close passage like a breeze within 10minutes. I only left 2 questions blank on passage1 because I was too tired to write long answers for that few marks. And as for passage2, I left quite a few blanks as I did not have enough time and skipped to the summary, which I only managed to write less than a hundred words. And to me, that was atrocious.

After that day, I went to have lunch with the "168 Brothers" and played volleyball again.

Freaky Friday

I was exempted from cell group meeting today. I was supposed to study, but I went out upon receiving my friend's message that he was around the area. I went to look for him and we went to Tampines Mall to walk around and also check out if there were any movies that were worth watching, but too bad, there was not a movie that we want. I also met Joshua, Khairul Zaman, Samuel, Issac(Samuel's twin brother whom I first met him), Chee Kah and Chu Han. They were going to watch 'Wall.E' and I think Joshua have already watch it around 2 times through the Internet.

My friend(Eugene) and I than went to his house at Yishun to watch a few movies through his laptop and also have some rest. I also lost my first kiss then as he accidentally kissed me when I was resting and woke up out of a sudden. I reached home at around 11.30pm that night.

Ending
Out of all this, you might not know what was it that I was so sad about. But I do not wish to share. I do not really have the mood to continue writing or edit my blog today. I am going to do my laundry now and also get ready for school tomorrow. Good Night.

The
Awesomeness
of God!!

IN CHEMISTRY... HE
TURNED WATER TO WINE

IN BIOLOGY...
HE WAS
BORN WITHOUT THE NORMAL CONCEPTION.

IN PHYSICS...
HE DISPROVED THE LAW OF GRAVITY WHEN HE ASCENDED INTO HEAVEN

IN ECONOMICS...
HE DISPROVED THE LAW OF DIMINISHING RETURN BY FEEDING 5000 MEN
(not...INCLUDING the WOMEN and CHILDREN)
WITH TWO FISHES & 5 LOAVES OF BREAD;

IN MEDICINE...
HE CURED THE SICK AND THE BLIND WITHOUT ADMINISTERING A SINGLE DOSE OF DRUGS,

IN HISTORY...
HE IS THE BEGINNING AND THE END;

IN GOVERNMENT...
HE SAID THAT HE SHALL BE CALLED WONDERFUL COUNSELOR, PRINCE OF PEACE;

IN RELIGION...
HE SAID NO ONE COMES TO THE FATHER EXCEPT THROUGH HIM;

SO.
WHO IS HE?

HE IS JESUS!

JOIN ME AND LET'S CELEBRATE HIM;

HE IS WORTHY.

THE EYES BEHOLDING THIS MESSAGE SHALL NOT BEHOLD EVIL, THE HAND THAT WILL SEND THIS MESSAGE TO EVERYBODY SHALL NOT LABOR IN VAIN, AND THE MOUTH SAYING AMEN TO THIS PRAYER SHALL SMILE FOREVER. REMAIN IN GOD AND SEEK HIS FACE ALWAYS.

AMEN

IN GOD I'VE FOUND EVERYTHING!
The Greatest Man in History

Jesus had no servants, yet they called Him Master.

Had no degree, yet they called Him Teacher.

Had no medicines, yet they called Him Healer.

He had no army, yet kings feared Him. He won no military battles, yet
He conquered the
world.

He committed no crime, yet they crucified Him.

He was buried in a tomb, yet He lives today.

I feel honored to serve such a Leader who loves us!

If you believe in God and in Jesus Christ His Son .. send this to all
On your buddy list .. if not just ignore it.

If you ignore it, just remember that Jesus said ... 'If you

deny me

before man, I will deny you before my Father in Heaven.'

God's Blessing is Over Flowing!

Have A Blessed Day

and pass this on.

The Next Person Just Might Need It!

Wishing you the blessings of love and prayers from the almighty.

The Start of N' level!!!

Today is the start of N' level for me and the first paper is Social Studies. I just realize that I have no clue or whatsoever globalization is. And pardon me, globalization was said to be one of the hottest topics that is going to be out, though I personally feel that it should be about the family planning as it was what the government is worried most about now, as from the National Day's Rally. But too bad, I could not possibly study last minute now right? But everything should be going well as I at least have a rough idea on how to do and what to do. I am just hoping that my speed will not fail me later. I also pray that I will not get NERVOUS and sleep during the exam, but instead, be filled with energy and also have a clear mind of what to do, being ALERT for the whole examination.

That is all for now. I hope that the paper is easy and also that I will get to blog again tonight to tell you about how everything go.

HAPPY TEACHERS' DAY

I sang for the Angklung ensemble today. The song is "The Reason" and I only get to rehearse once yesterday and that was it. But everything went well except that my singing was too soft. I was told that it was due to the microphone and also that I was not bold enough, lacking the showmanship. But everything still sound nice. Thanks Mr. Rezal, though I have to apologize for not knowing how to spell your name.

Then I also had fun with Nicholas, and came along with Zachery at the back of the hall. Over there, Zachery got his nuts squashed. Nicholas and I were given a Ferraro Roche chocolate each. Nicholas played with his while I was keeping mine till the end of whole performance. Nicholas totally embarrassed himself when he was eating his chocolate when Zachery said that the chocolate he played with looked like a dick, which made Nicholas laughed like never before and drooled out his chocolate and saliva. And that was very disgusting.

After the whole performance, I have nowhere to go. I went to Zhi Hui and Weiling and they were having a dilemma about who to ask to watch a movie. Then everything was settled and only Deyuen, Samuel and Mei Foong was going with them. Samuel and I also exchanged our Ez-link card because they were going to watch an NC16 movie. It was fun, though I was afraid that I will overuse his card.

I then went to visit my mum, went to the Bedok Regional Library, and went back to my mum to have lunch with her, which caused me to miss my Geography remedial. I went home after that.

I went home and read the New Paper and went to take a nap. Kengsern than message me and asked me where was I. I thought it was only 4pm and replied that the study group will only be starting at 5pm, little did I know that it was already 6.15pm. I then give myself a quick change and bolt out of the house for cell group.

Today's cell group was overly high in spirits. I even went wrong flow during the praise. It was really very fun. Though I did not have a chance to share my testimonial about the chance to sing in school.

That all for tonight. I am turning in now. Good night.

I work up at 6am today, 30 minutes later than the time I'm suppose to wake up. And the first thing I saw on my phone when I woke up was that I had a missed call from Joshua. Too bad I cannot hear my phone and also the alarm due to my bolster lying on my phone. I then went straight for a shower and make my way to the train station with my 1.5 liters of green tea as I was meeting Joshua.

We were almost late today. But thank God that there is a lot of people late due to the fact that it is Monday today. I was shock when I was at the main gate of the school as Jordan said that he had been late for 16 times.

By the way, today is my CLB prelim. It was, well, difficult for me as I do not have my dictionary with me for the paper one. Trust me, the topic was very easy.

During recess, I was so pissed with one of the Malay boy. Not that I am a racist but I find that that group of boys are exceptionally irritating. One tried to scare me while I was carrying my food and also tried to trip me the second time.

Then there is my free period in the library. Joshua was trying to draw me in manga form and it looks like a basketball. But it is fine as it is not the real me. I also have a feeling that Donovan do not like me. He was contradicting whatever I say.

I also realize something about myself today. It is that when I am not in the mood to learn or study, I will not do it. And when I am, I'll ask a lot of questions that might irritate the teacher. This happens during Chemistry class today.

After school, I played volleyball and a one-on-one basketball match with Donovan, and I won with the score of 7/1. I think it is due to my height.

I then went to the music room as I heard some music at the foyer. It was a CCA and they ask me to sing 'The Reason' for them.

Lastly, I went to the bus stop and a girl came to me calling me an eunuch, which I do not like it. I manage to tease her until the point that when she ask for the help of others, they cannot help her. Then I went home with Shahidah, Talking about her special somebody.

I am ending here. I am also trying to make my blog more interesting so please continue reading my blog for the time being. Good night.

Day of Lateness

I was late for school and bible study today. Well, I woke up 0830 today, which is the time the school start. So I did not manage to shower before going to school. In the end, I was 1 hour late. I am already late for school and the weird thing is that the Mr Ismail (Operation Manager) still hold me back. He refuse to sign my late-coming slip, finding it irritating, and asked me to get out of his office and wait for him. So I waited for 30 minutes until Mr Martin Chan (Discipline Master) came to me and asked why was I sitting there. I told him that I was late and he signed my late-coming slip. Thank God the first period was Chinese and it is a free period for me.

Then I went for my Additional Maths lesson. We got back our prelim paper and I only got 29/70. But at least I beat Winston, who got 25/70, and got on par with Donovan.

Next during Geography class, Ms Kho was very serious at first and got very friendly to us out of a sudden. In the end, she only get to go through one and a half question due to a lot of questions and distractions. And during Principle of Accounts(POA) lesson, Miss Tan did not come. But she did leave a work for us to do. I did try to do the first question, but I did a mistake and do not want to do it anymore, cause the paper will look very ugly with all the cancellation, which I do not like it. So I went to the back of the class and Deyuan let me stare at a weird video in his phone and ask me to look at someone's face after that. It was really fun.

English was canceled today but we had maths test instead. And guess what did I do for the whole test, I slept. What a smart move. And everyone kept asking Mdm Anisa the same question regarding the test paper, including me. Then I was the last to finish my paper and I was there irritating Mdm Anisa. After the test, I held Zhi Hui's hand on my left and Weiling's hand on my right and walk with them to the foyer, together with Mei Foong and Wei Ling. A lot of people were looking at us when I was holding their hands and walking to the foyer.

I then played a bit of basketball and went to Palm Cove to grab a drink. Aunty Reini give me 2 bananas to eat. She told me a lot of stories regarding her dealing with kids. And that made me realize how scary she is.

I then rush to bible study as I was getting late. All bible study room was not air-conditioned today. Thank God the hallways are. To day I learn about faith and I realize that it is actually a very big topic. Faith is actually very simple, but yet very complicated.

After bible study, I went to have roti prata with Kengsern, Riane, Wai Yin, and a lot others. Too tired to name them all. We then go home after that.

End of my day. Though my blog is getting really boring. I wonder if anyone know my blog and read it. Do tag me if there is. Good night.

Rededication to God

I rededicated my life to Jesus today. It was during the alter call when Kengsern asked me to go down. I thought at first that he would like me to accompany the new friend, Aaron. Speaking of Aaron, he received the touch of God and cried. I believe Kengsern is a very anointed man. I can see him raising up as a cell group leader very soon. Back to the topic, after comforting Aaron, Kengsern pull me aside and ask if I want to rededicate my life.

I know he sensed and discerned what have I been going through and what have I not done. True enough, I have not do my quiet time for a long time. And when I do, I would mostly use the time to praise and worship the Lord. I have not been reading the Word, never. Though God has really been speaking to my to read His Word and also to raise up to an occasion.

But I am scared. I am afraid that I do not have what it takes to raise up. I am afraid that when I do my quiet time, God is not there. Therefore I kept procrastinating. Procrastinate about me going to pray once my guitar is fixed. Procrastinate about fixing the guitar the guitar once I have the money.

I am so disappointed in myself. Am I even suppose to call myself as a Christian?