I was suppose to meet up with Joshua at 1.30pm today, ended up waking up late at 1pm cause my Dad went to switch off my alarm, and took a cab to school. We are going to take our N' level results today, yet it does not appear so to me. When I reached school, I saw Alvin instantly, though I could hardly recognize him. He have changed quite a little, but just not knowing what was the change. And as usual, I will go meet "168 Bros" before we go up together.

We went up , go through the boring talk and took our results. I did fairly well for my N' level and my aggregate is 5 points. It was not to my expectation to get this well. English - 2, Combined Humanities - 4, Additional Mathematics- 4, Mathematics - 1, Science(Physics/Chemistry) - 2, Principles of accounts- 4. This result surprised everyone, including myself and the teachers, as my attitude towards studies is not very pleasant. I will always be sleeping in class and fail to hand in any work. There is no way I am able to beat my friends. Getting 5 points is not into consideration. Truly this is a work of God.

I was thinking last night that if I am not able to make it to Sec 5, what ITE courses will I go. I even prayed to God to allow me to go to Sec 5. But yet after I got my result, I was in a dilemma of whether or not should I go to Sec 5. Mdm Anisa told me, "According to your results, you should go to Sec 5. But by looking at my attitude and behavior, I should give a deep thinking to it." These words did not affect me very much, but it does make sense. I went to talk to Yong Xiu and Dayan about it, and they do not encourage me to go ITE as it is a waste of time, and there is no guarantee. Then I remembered, I prayed to God last night to allow me to be promoted to Sec 5, so I am able to be the salt and light in the school, and more importantly, bringing revival to Ping Yi. God has now blessed me with the results as I have asked, but am I going to take it? So I have decide to go to sec 5 next year.

I am suppose to be happy today, but received a bad news. My grandpa was just admitted to hospital this morning cause he complained that he is having some breathing difficulty in the morning. I am really worried about my grandpa and I heard from my mum that he is unconscious. I was praying for my grandpa on my to Riverwalk for prayer meeting.

During the prayer meeting, Bedok North and Jurong West shared their testimonials on their revivals. I believe that Ping Yi's revival is near. Amen!

Was tidying up my room last night when I came across all my old memories. The warmth and joy still stick within them, memories that I can never forget. It is also the time when I came across Jesus in my life. Those period were the best and can never be replaced. Truly I thought, in every area of my life, God has never once forsake me and neither He ever will.

I came across a small book that was given to me last time. Inside I wrote," A vision without working is daydream, but working without vision is nightmare." Yet I have forgotten about this. I lost my vision and I do not know when did it go. Did I do something that my vision ran away? I have never thought of myself losing the way I was going. A vision is the light and way in which push us to go further. I am too caught up with the present and the problems that I have neglected everything else.

I have been sleeping late these few days, turning in at around 5am-6am. But I get to enjoy these times as I get to understand myself more and also drawing closer to Him. I thank God for the Jurong West people, they really do brought me uncountable numbers of wonderful times. Thought I am not with them, just by looking at them allow me to feel the joy.

I will be getting my N' level results tomorrow. I doubt if I am able to go to Sec 5. Shindy was asking me to compete with the all time top student, Robert, next year if I am able to go to Sec 5. But I have no passion for studying. Perhaps I will try to take Robert on as a friendly competition.

Christmas is coming.......