Elements I

N' level will be starting again next week, and I am not really prepared yet. I am getting use to the things around once more, but the problem is that whether I can make it in time. Everything seems to be like a playback of my memories. It stood a test of time where everyone have to go through. Everyone will have a special yet equal destiny, but how would you want to hold it?

How would you want to shape your future? Treasures stood a test of time and pressure. Just like a diamond, being left underground for more than millennium, withstanding all the pressure, and finally, it turn from a useless carbon like charcoal into precious and hardest element, still the same carbon, but as a diamond. Diamond really stood out in the rest of other elements, but can we stand out like it?

Which is the element can be compared to a diamond? Gold perhaps? But gold did not withstand the pressure. It is just being hidden. It stood the pressure but was not change into something different and more magnificent. It stood the same. It was more precious than carbon, but after the test of time, it is carbon(diamond) that beat gold. Which is more precious then?

There are a lot more things I would really like to share, but I will have to wait till the next time. This is just the first part. So do come back the next time, I hope I am able to continue. Good night.

Low in the Spirit..

It have been more than a week, yet I am still very depress and sad. I was suppose to study with some of the cell group members today as Aaron was complaining last night that he have nothing to do today, so I suggested to come out to study together. I asked Chaiern and Jingliang along as the more the merrier. Thus, I let them decide the venue to study and they said that they want to study at City Hall...

I will end here tonight. Do not have the mood to blog.

Sadness and Disappointments

Real sad for these few days. But even so, life still have to go on.

-N' Level Social Studies-

It was actually since Wednesday. I did not do very well for my N' Level Social Studies, or did I? The paper was actually very easy, though the questions that came out was a bit different from what we usually did. However, I did not manage to finish my paper. There was just so much to write about and so little time. Or was it just me that thinks there was a lot to write and not enough time?

But thank God that I remembered to manage my time, though it was not enough. The total duration of the paper was 1hour 30minutes. I allocated 45minutes for each section, so the second it 45minutes have been spent on Source-Based Questions(SBQ), I ignore everything that was not done there and spent the rest of my time concentrating on the Structured Essay Questions(SEQ).

I only managed to do only 2 questions from SBQ out of the four. As for the SEQ, I chose question 2, which was the theme that I was most confident in. But I did not manage to complete both questions. When I was doing question 2a, I looked at the time and found that it is time to do question 2b as the mark is higher and that I might not even pass if I do not change my focus on that question. But still I did not complete that question.

After the paper, "168 Brothers" and I went to the basketball court nearby to play volleyball.

*N' Level English*

It was time for one of my favorite papers. I am not very good in English myself, but just one of the better ones in my class. Paper 1 was easy. I did my usual stuff by first doing the situation writing, follow by the one word question for the composition. The situation writing was not very direct but it was known to most people, including myself, that we were required to write an informal letter. And as for my composition, I felt that I did not do very well myself. The question was "Mistake" and I elaborated it.

Paper 2 was another easy task for me. I did the close passage like a breeze within 10minutes. I only left 2 questions blank on passage1 because I was too tired to write long answers for that few marks. And as for passage2, I left quite a few blanks as I did not have enough time and skipped to the summary, which I only managed to write less than a hundred words. And to me, that was atrocious.

After that day, I went to have lunch with the "168 Brothers" and played volleyball again.

Freaky Friday

I was exempted from cell group meeting today. I was supposed to study, but I went out upon receiving my friend's message that he was around the area. I went to look for him and we went to Tampines Mall to walk around and also check out if there were any movies that were worth watching, but too bad, there was not a movie that we want. I also met Joshua, Khairul Zaman, Samuel, Issac(Samuel's twin brother whom I first met him), Chee Kah and Chu Han. They were going to watch 'Wall.E' and I think Joshua have already watch it around 2 times through the Internet.

My friend(Eugene) and I than went to his house at Yishun to watch a few movies through his laptop and also have some rest. I also lost my first kiss then as he accidentally kissed me when I was resting and woke up out of a sudden. I reached home at around 11.30pm that night.

Ending
Out of all this, you might not know what was it that I was so sad about. But I do not wish to share. I do not really have the mood to continue writing or edit my blog today. I am going to do my laundry now and also get ready for school tomorrow. Good Night.

The
Awesomeness
of God!!

IN CHEMISTRY... HE
TURNED WATER TO WINE

IN BIOLOGY...
HE WAS
BORN WITHOUT THE NORMAL CONCEPTION.

IN PHYSICS...
HE DISPROVED THE LAW OF GRAVITY WHEN HE ASCENDED INTO HEAVEN

IN ECONOMICS...
HE DISPROVED THE LAW OF DIMINISHING RETURN BY FEEDING 5000 MEN
(not...INCLUDING the WOMEN and CHILDREN)
WITH TWO FISHES & 5 LOAVES OF BREAD;

IN MEDICINE...
HE CURED THE SICK AND THE BLIND WITHOUT ADMINISTERING A SINGLE DOSE OF DRUGS,

IN HISTORY...
HE IS THE BEGINNING AND THE END;

IN GOVERNMENT...
HE SAID THAT HE SHALL BE CALLED WONDERFUL COUNSELOR, PRINCE OF PEACE;

IN RELIGION...
HE SAID NO ONE COMES TO THE FATHER EXCEPT THROUGH HIM;

SO.
WHO IS HE?

HE IS JESUS!

JOIN ME AND LET'S CELEBRATE HIM;

HE IS WORTHY.

THE EYES BEHOLDING THIS MESSAGE SHALL NOT BEHOLD EVIL, THE HAND THAT WILL SEND THIS MESSAGE TO EVERYBODY SHALL NOT LABOR IN VAIN, AND THE MOUTH SAYING AMEN TO THIS PRAYER SHALL SMILE FOREVER. REMAIN IN GOD AND SEEK HIS FACE ALWAYS.

AMEN

IN GOD I'VE FOUND EVERYTHING!
The Greatest Man in History

Jesus had no servants, yet they called Him Master.

Had no degree, yet they called Him Teacher.

Had no medicines, yet they called Him Healer.

He had no army, yet kings feared Him. He won no military battles, yet
He conquered the
world.

He committed no crime, yet they crucified Him.

He was buried in a tomb, yet He lives today.

I feel honored to serve such a Leader who loves us!

If you believe in God and in Jesus Christ His Son .. send this to all
On your buddy list .. if not just ignore it.

If you ignore it, just remember that Jesus said ... 'If you

deny me

before man, I will deny you before my Father in Heaven.'

God's Blessing is Over Flowing!

Have A Blessed Day

and pass this on.

The Next Person Just Might Need It!

Wishing you the blessings of love and prayers from the almighty.

The Start of N' level!!!

Today is the start of N' level for me and the first paper is Social Studies. I just realize that I have no clue or whatsoever globalization is. And pardon me, globalization was said to be one of the hottest topics that is going to be out, though I personally feel that it should be about the family planning as it was what the government is worried most about now, as from the National Day's Rally. But too bad, I could not possibly study last minute now right? But everything should be going well as I at least have a rough idea on how to do and what to do. I am just hoping that my speed will not fail me later. I also pray that I will not get NERVOUS and sleep during the exam, but instead, be filled with energy and also have a clear mind of what to do, being ALERT for the whole examination.

That is all for now. I hope that the paper is easy and also that I will get to blog again tonight to tell you about how everything go.

HAPPY TEACHERS' DAY

I sang for the Angklung ensemble today. The song is "The Reason" and I only get to rehearse once yesterday and that was it. But everything went well except that my singing was too soft. I was told that it was due to the microphone and also that I was not bold enough, lacking the showmanship. But everything still sound nice. Thanks Mr. Rezal, though I have to apologize for not knowing how to spell your name.

Then I also had fun with Nicholas, and came along with Zachery at the back of the hall. Over there, Zachery got his nuts squashed. Nicholas and I were given a Ferraro Roche chocolate each. Nicholas played with his while I was keeping mine till the end of whole performance. Nicholas totally embarrassed himself when he was eating his chocolate when Zachery said that the chocolate he played with looked like a dick, which made Nicholas laughed like never before and drooled out his chocolate and saliva. And that was very disgusting.

After the whole performance, I have nowhere to go. I went to Zhi Hui and Weiling and they were having a dilemma about who to ask to watch a movie. Then everything was settled and only Deyuen, Samuel and Mei Foong was going with them. Samuel and I also exchanged our Ez-link card because they were going to watch an NC16 movie. It was fun, though I was afraid that I will overuse his card.

I then went to visit my mum, went to the Bedok Regional Library, and went back to my mum to have lunch with her, which caused me to miss my Geography remedial. I went home after that.

I went home and read the New Paper and went to take a nap. Kengsern than message me and asked me where was I. I thought it was only 4pm and replied that the study group will only be starting at 5pm, little did I know that it was already 6.15pm. I then give myself a quick change and bolt out of the house for cell group.

Today's cell group was overly high in spirits. I even went wrong flow during the praise. It was really very fun. Though I did not have a chance to share my testimonial about the chance to sing in school.

That all for tonight. I am turning in now. Good night.

I work up at 6am today, 30 minutes later than the time I'm suppose to wake up. And the first thing I saw on my phone when I woke up was that I had a missed call from Joshua. Too bad I cannot hear my phone and also the alarm due to my bolster lying on my phone. I then went straight for a shower and make my way to the train station with my 1.5 liters of green tea as I was meeting Joshua.

We were almost late today. But thank God that there is a lot of people late due to the fact that it is Monday today. I was shock when I was at the main gate of the school as Jordan said that he had been late for 16 times.

By the way, today is my CLB prelim. It was, well, difficult for me as I do not have my dictionary with me for the paper one. Trust me, the topic was very easy.

During recess, I was so pissed with one of the Malay boy. Not that I am a racist but I find that that group of boys are exceptionally irritating. One tried to scare me while I was carrying my food and also tried to trip me the second time.

Then there is my free period in the library. Joshua was trying to draw me in manga form and it looks like a basketball. But it is fine as it is not the real me. I also have a feeling that Donovan do not like me. He was contradicting whatever I say.

I also realize something about myself today. It is that when I am not in the mood to learn or study, I will not do it. And when I am, I'll ask a lot of questions that might irritate the teacher. This happens during Chemistry class today.

After school, I played volleyball and a one-on-one basketball match with Donovan, and I won with the score of 7/1. I think it is due to my height.

I then went to the music room as I heard some music at the foyer. It was a CCA and they ask me to sing 'The Reason' for them.

Lastly, I went to the bus stop and a girl came to me calling me an eunuch, which I do not like it. I manage to tease her until the point that when she ask for the help of others, they cannot help her. Then I went home with Shahidah, Talking about her special somebody.

I am ending here. I am also trying to make my blog more interesting so please continue reading my blog for the time being. Good night.

Day of Lateness

I was late for school and bible study today. Well, I woke up 0830 today, which is the time the school start. So I did not manage to shower before going to school. In the end, I was 1 hour late. I am already late for school and the weird thing is that the Mr Ismail (Operation Manager) still hold me back. He refuse to sign my late-coming slip, finding it irritating, and asked me to get out of his office and wait for him. So I waited for 30 minutes until Mr Martin Chan (Discipline Master) came to me and asked why was I sitting there. I told him that I was late and he signed my late-coming slip. Thank God the first period was Chinese and it is a free period for me.

Then I went for my Additional Maths lesson. We got back our prelim paper and I only got 29/70. But at least I beat Winston, who got 25/70, and got on par with Donovan.

Next during Geography class, Ms Kho was very serious at first and got very friendly to us out of a sudden. In the end, she only get to go through one and a half question due to a lot of questions and distractions. And during Principle of Accounts(POA) lesson, Miss Tan did not come. But she did leave a work for us to do. I did try to do the first question, but I did a mistake and do not want to do it anymore, cause the paper will look very ugly with all the cancellation, which I do not like it. So I went to the back of the class and Deyuan let me stare at a weird video in his phone and ask me to look at someone's face after that. It was really fun.

English was canceled today but we had maths test instead. And guess what did I do for the whole test, I slept. What a smart move. And everyone kept asking Mdm Anisa the same question regarding the test paper, including me. Then I was the last to finish my paper and I was there irritating Mdm Anisa. After the test, I held Zhi Hui's hand on my left and Weiling's hand on my right and walk with them to the foyer, together with Mei Foong and Wei Ling. A lot of people were looking at us when I was holding their hands and walking to the foyer.

I then played a bit of basketball and went to Palm Cove to grab a drink. Aunty Reini give me 2 bananas to eat. She told me a lot of stories regarding her dealing with kids. And that made me realize how scary she is.

I then rush to bible study as I was getting late. All bible study room was not air-conditioned today. Thank God the hallways are. To day I learn about faith and I realize that it is actually a very big topic. Faith is actually very simple, but yet very complicated.

After bible study, I went to have roti prata with Kengsern, Riane, Wai Yin, and a lot others. Too tired to name them all. We then go home after that.

End of my day. Though my blog is getting really boring. I wonder if anyone know my blog and read it. Do tag me if there is. Good night.

Rededication to God

I rededicated my life to Jesus today. It was during the alter call when Kengsern asked me to go down. I thought at first that he would like me to accompany the new friend, Aaron. Speaking of Aaron, he received the touch of God and cried. I believe Kengsern is a very anointed man. I can see him raising up as a cell group leader very soon. Back to the topic, after comforting Aaron, Kengsern pull me aside and ask if I want to rededicate my life.

I know he sensed and discerned what have I been going through and what have I not done. True enough, I have not do my quiet time for a long time. And when I do, I would mostly use the time to praise and worship the Lord. I have not been reading the Word, never. Though God has really been speaking to my to read His Word and also to raise up to an occasion.

But I am scared. I am afraid that I do not have what it takes to raise up. I am afraid that when I do my quiet time, God is not there. Therefore I kept procrastinating. Procrastinate about me going to pray once my guitar is fixed. Procrastinate about fixing the guitar the guitar once I have the money.

I am so disappointed in myself. Am I even suppose to call myself as a Christian?