Prelims started this week. Had a few papers already, but don't think I did very well. I'll just have to trust God and wait for the results.

Just watched a few videos, but none of them suits to be displayed here. But don't worry, I'll still try to keep you guys updated.

This week will be Festival Of Praise(FOP) and City Harvest 20th Anniversary. It'll be awesome. I'm really looking forward for it, especially the anniversary services. Specially designed CHC glass block will be given to attendance of the 1st anniversary service, and I'll be there to get it, though there will be other gifts as well.

Before I forget, I went to the gym a few times this week and injured my right middle finger. If you wanna ask me what happened, I was carrying the weight, but Winston said something that made me drop the weight on my finger. Ouch.. So it's a little painful when I bent it and I still cant bend it all the way down. Kinda irritated by it cause I can't hold anything without bending it, or else it'll seem like I'm scolding someone. So do pray for me yea? it still hurts. Ow.. And I'll be clenching my right fist from now till my finger regains it's energy. So don't go thinking I'm angry or anything. Ow again.

A new wave is coming up. A new song. A new Chapter. It is beating in my heart. It's placing a zest of joy in my life. It's swirling within me, as though calling out to me. And this surely will renew my life, turning my old self and set a new rhythm to it. But still, some things are hard to let go.

I happen to saw this video on Chaiern's blog. It'll totally spoil your appetite so warning, DO NOT EAT WHILE APPRECIATING THIS VID. Thank you. Hope you enjoy it.

Don't ask me about today cause I did nothing interesting.

There isn't anything to post about today. I'm just here to notify everyone that my blog start up again.

By the way, these few days have been really tough for me. I can actually feel being stretched and that everyone around me is pushing in to encourage me while on the verge of giving up on me. I really appreciate these people a lot and really don't want to put all your efforts to waste. This time is very different from the encouragements given in the past, but this time, everything and everyone come pushing and encouraging this big guy at the same time. I am impressed, amazed and moved by this. Surely this is beyond the ordinary, this is God's doing I'm trying my best now not to forsake everyone's hope one me.

I'll try to keep you guys updated on this blog and if you have any encouraging words or quotes to tell me regarding any post, for instance this one, tell me using the comments so I can keep track of it and come back to be inspired again and again in the future. Thanks.

I have no adventure to tell of today as I stayed at home all day. Come to think about it, I never did. At most I will just post some videos I viewed today. I did have some fun the few days before. I will just mention them briefly.

Friday's paper is a goner as I was sleeping. Lets hope for the better for my prelim and O' level. Then I went for NCC as I do not want to sweat. So I went to admin and played with Gabriel's laptop and watch some videos. Happy tree friends, guitar and dance videos to be exact. I then went for cell group meeting which was terrific. We have to write down our desires. As for mine, I just wrote it down today. I want to greater serve God and people with what I have, and I want to go to TP.

Yesterday was wonderful. Accompanied Wei Lin with her bible study with Natalie and Jaslyn, which inspired me to give bible study a little. Met up the rest of the cell group members to go for Jurong West service. It was truely a blessing as pastor talked about the 5 smooth stones of David. We then rushed for the bus for the Expo service. Dr. Kim Sung Hae was really cute and interesting, though to tell you the truth, I missed out what she saying half the time.

Family photo when I was young. Missed the times.
Ronson, Dad, Johnson, Benson, Mum, Me.

4 brothers together.
Myself, Ronson, Benson, Johnson.

My mum in her twenties. Pretty right?

This boy is awesome

This dance troup as well. Their synchronization is very good.

These are some interesting commercials

Today's Physics and Social Studies paper was difficult, or maybe it was cause I was sleeping half of the time. Well, I was really tired then. I guess I am going to fail then.

Deyuan, Winston, Chen Sheng, Alan, Samuel and I had lunch in the canteen today. And guess what, I was too tired to eat. The food was in front of me and I literally forced myself to eat it. Normally I will polished off the plates, but there were obvious leftovers today.

We then went to practice our volleyball, or maybe you can call it play. Instead of joining in the fun, I was resting under the baking hot Sun, playing with a paper plane(sorry but I tend to be a little random sometimes, especially when I am tired) and joined them after that. Joshua then hitch on, played tennis and left for tuition together with Dennis and Zi Yu. Everything ended at around 5pm and everyone went home.

Mid-year exam has already started and everyone is getting ready for the papers. Just today, Shelby asked a few of us out to study for Social studies and Physics. They woke me up at 11 am to meet them up at Princess Mac and I actually reached there at 1.30 pm. Not forgetting Eleen calling me at 11am as well to invite me to her house, but I decline the invitation.

There were Shelby, Deyuen, Chen Sheng, Donovan, Samuel, Winston and myself there studying, or better to say that they were studying. But I did study a little, so do not say that I was idling there.

Studies aside, we also played some silly but fun games. We played "Hangman" and "True or Dare." Though I will not give your the contents of the game. But it certainly was fun and it has been quite long since I last played these games.

We took some pictures as well, though I am not allowed to post any of the photos. In fact, I cannot post any pictures of my friends as they do not like it. But seriously, I wonder what joy is there when we cannot share it with others. I understand that some of them do not like their pictures taken, but worse yet posting and sharing it with others. But you guys cannot just ask me to change my post and take away the pictures just like that. This is my blog. I want to share my moments with others, since I do not have much myself. And quit telling each other the pictures I have of them. I want them to come and take a look at it themselves and smile, not hearing from someone and think that I post some "unglam" pictures of them. I have seen better "worse" pictures, they are in Chaiern's blog, and people enjoyed the pictures and the ones with their pictures taken just smile in embarrassment a little and got on with it. I have actually thought of doing an e-album to keep the memories and share it with everyone. But what is the point if no one appreciates it?

By the way, I am going to say this though I know some of you may thing I 'bhb', I appreciates people taking pictures of me, I do not mind. I mean if every picture I am about to post have to seek the permission of someone else defeats the purpose of me posting it and even more having a blog. Below are just some pictures that I can post.

Draft of Bee Hwa's birthday card.
Most of the idea came from Brandon.

I took a picture of myself when we were studying just now.
I also took pictures of myself with them, but they just warned me not to post it.

Saw this cat napping on my way home.
Cute isn't it? Though "unglam" for a cat.
Do you think I should seek permission of the cat before posting this pic?

HAPPY BIRTHDAY WEI LIN!!
HAPPY BIRTHDAY BEE HWA!!
HAPPY MOTHER'S DAY TO ALL MOTHERS!!

Met up with Natalie and Jaslyn in the noon to do some cards. Then had an inspiring discipleship with Yong Xiu. Though it was about rising up, which I do not think I am ready yet because firstly, I am not discipline in my punctuality. Secondly, I do not have a good countenance. Thirdly, I am not a good example. I am sorry Wai Yin.

After the service, I kinda neglected William as had Bee Hwa's birthday to prepare. Sorry.

We had whole lot of fun and we replaced flour with water this time round and it was really great, besides the fact that some water balloons fell off the second floor. How I wish that my birthday would be this exciting, but it never did.

Wai Yin talked to the core members before we all make our way home. She felt burdened for the cell group's discipline, which was what I had in mind as well. She urged me once again to rise up but I remain silent. Natalie too urged me to rise up but I told her the reasons why I do not think I should. The fact is that I would like to help Wai Yin with the cell group as I am too burdened for my leader, for my cell group. Just that I do not think it is time for me yet. But then to say, "When is?!"

It was around 10-ish pm when we left the place and I went to look for my mum. Waited for the the second hand to struck at twelve before wishing my mum a Happy Mother's Day. After which I came home.

The English paper today was difficult, or was it just that I was dreaming? I did not remember what did I write half of the time. Come to think about it, I never remember any of the papers I have done. Have I been taking papers unknowingly? Awesome! But I do remember my Paper 1, Section A, I chose the topic "Values." I wonder what did I write. At least I am aware that I got back my guitar. Took a little pictures while waiting for the papers to start.



I went to meet up with William, together with Katherine, Eleen and their friends. We went to his house and he told us to wait for us at the fitness area which he took 55 minutes to meet us. Good thing there was an old lady chatting with me with her baby grandson, Jarren. I think that is how you spell his name though.

I was really tired today. I did some silly things like walking around Bao Wang's flat, which is 20 storeys high. William and Martin went all over the place to find me. They found me eventually and William realize that I was really tired and bored. So he kept persuading me to go home and sent me off at the bus stop. Then everything else went off as usual.

Friday
No school on Friday, but there was the Men's Meeting. I was late and had to sit in the overflow room and trust me, it was nothing compare to the auditorium itself. The topic was rather confidential as it was more of a men's talk. After which I went to Bedok Mac and met up with Natalie, Ying En, Victor, Kenneth and Xiao Yong. I did not expect to meet them, especially seeing Daryl and his three other female classmates there as well. Sorry for not remembering your names if you are reading this.

Went to Kenneth's house, did nothing, and back to Mac again to meet Wai Yin and the others for study group and tuition. Donovan came to study with us as well, though we both agreed that it is not a very conducive place to study in as it was noisy and cramped. By the way, I saw Kelvin, Eleen, Man Ho, Katherine two other Ping Yians studying there as well, though they were not with us. Wei Lin used my phone to take pictures.



I was not studying over there, instead, walking around and chatting with people. But Wai Yin manage to get me to sit down and do my work after giving bible study to Ying En.

After the whole tuition, everyone went home and I went to look for my Dar Dar William to do some things. Then long story, which followed by me almost missing my last bus to go home.

Saturday and Sunday
I was seriously blown away by Dr Stephan K. Munsey during service on Saturday and Sunday. Trust me, he was incredible. Instead of preaching, he acted out the sermon, as in he acting it out without any props or equipment. He modernized the gospel to relate it to us. It was awesome. I am really looking forward for him to come again and I will ask Samuel Lee along.

Today
Decided not to go to school today but do some self study at home. Mid-year exam is starting tomorrow with English paper 1 and 2 first, followed by A. Maths paper 1 on Thurs. I will go going of to cut my hair now. See you soon.

I am back once again. Not a lot of stuff happened, just that I sprained my ankle when I was playing basketball, and this took longer than the ones I had before to heal. It has been roughly a week since then and I can still fell the pain. I even ran for my 2.4km run with it. Good thing it does not hurt when I was running. Perhaps it was because I was walking then. But I think I did manage to get a pass for it, just a pass will do.

As for my confidence level, I am building it up slowly once again. I believe that my confidence this time will not falter, at least not any time soon. I am trying to bring up my favor in singing once again as well. Or maybe not the favor but the yearn to improve. Hold on, not just only will I improve on my singing, but my studies and my motivation. Though the motivation part have to put some effort into it.

I too want to improve my relationship with people and God. But I have to apologize to some people that I have done wrong to by staying silent and giving some sort of attitude problem. I just wanted to calm down a bit and sort out some of the things, just like the past. And about not being open up to you guys, there are some things that I am not ready to let it out to you guys. I know it sound kinda selfish but I will try as these things takes time. Sometimes I just do not know how to bring it up to you guys. Sorry.

And lastly about today, Boon Kim drove me up the walls when he kept asking teacher questions and chatting with her. I eventually quit doing the paper though there were questions left unread.
But sincere apologies to those in the class when I showed an attitude problem just now.


These are just random pictures

2007 Birthday Card

2008 Birthday Card

Class Logo that I have drawn

My lovely cousin Ching Fong that asked me out to Escape theme park, thouh most of the ride were not open. Sigh..

I am back. My apologies for not blogging for such a long time. I did not have any chance to use the computer for the past few days. I gonna skip the long stories. All I have to say now is that I am kinda stressed up in school. Having my Ez-link card confiscated, teachers demands, and my mum having to come to school tomorrow to meet the teachers to collect my report book makes me really distressed. The worst thing is that I cannot go for any of the prayer meetings this week.

I have also grown fatter these few days. Actually, I have seen it coming as I am not doing anything. Most probably I will start exercising again.

Time seems to be running very fast in secondary 5 life. Even though the hardships are there for our good, but is it not too much? Assignments cannot be finished even if I make an effort to do them. Sometimes I truly think that it might b better if I self study at home. But teachers have yet to finish the syllabus. All I want now is some breathing space, is that too much to ask for? But I do believe that things are going to turn out well.

These few days were depressing. I only pass two subjects for my Common Test, which is Additional Maths and Mathematics. I did not get through the auditions for Ping Yi Idol(my school) and the cast for the movie "Fighting Spiders", which is today. But everything is still quite passable. I seriously feel like screaming at the top of my voice, letting everything out. I think it is perhaps the weather and the stress I am getting in school. Though there were some pleasant and laughable times as well.

I will start off with what happened today, summarize the events later on and ending off with the pictures that I have took.

Was late meeting Weiling and Shimin today for cell group, but had fun in the train. We took the train to the new train station that opened just recently, Pioneer, to go Victor's house for cell group. We bought our lunch there and walked our way to our destination. We ate our lunch and hang around while waiting for the rest to arrive.Weiling asked me a question that put me on the spot. She asked whats the thing dangling under Victor's dog's tail(it is a male). I was speechless as I have no idea on how to explain it to her. Cell group started late today, which makes everything in a rush. I then excuse myself and went to meet Shelby and Shindy for the audition for "Fighting Spider" at Marina Square. I only had two hours to memorise my lines. But I did not get in a lost my words on stage as plans changed to that two person will act together instead of one during my turn. I felt that I manipulated my partner for not getting in. Shelby tried as well but too did not get in because of her partner. Felt dreadful for the rest of the day, we went Muji and proceed home after that. Did I mention that Vivianne was there as well? We met her by coincidence and she got in. Congrats Vivianne and all the best for the following rounds.

Sometimes it is pretty silly on how people are able to fight over little issues. There was a time I saw two uncles having a dispute over alighting the bus. I do not have the details of it. All I know was that one uncle was in the way as the uncle behind wanted to alight. Without a word, he pushed the uncle in front of him. When they were at he bus stop, they threw words at one another, and before you know what was happening, words turned into punches. We might think that it is absurd, two men in their forties fighting? Childish. But though we may think like this now, sometimes we ourselves also do some foolish things that we all we can do is smile at them when we recall them in the future. I mean we have no point baring a grudge over this kind of this right?

Last Thursday was perhaps the worst day this week. I was late for school and had to copy the whole code of conduct. I got the news that my school was hosting a Ping Yi Idol. I had no preparation and sang "I lay my love on you" this was the only song I know how. I was then rejected. The teachers said that my voice is too weak as I sort of overdid it. But Shelby And Hydir did got in. I went to Guang Xiang house later and he taught me guitar. I totally appreciates it as this brightens my whole again.

So here are the pictures, enjoy.

I met Yvonne and Biqi(my childhood friends) by coincidence.
Went to Tampines Mall Ajisan with them.

Yvonne reminds me of Kristy

This was taken in class

Mei Foong

Divya

Pei Ling

Fauzan

Chen Sheng

Alan Wee

Donovan

These two pictures were edited,
but I think they look really nice.

Shindy

These two pictures were taken while I was waiting for bus at Expo.
Was really bored then.

The new Jurong Point is definitely females paradise. So guys, beware of your girlfriends when you bring them there. We had our service at Jurong West this week. It brings back fond memories.

After the service, the whole cell group played board games. I used to think that it is bored games. I played Monopoly with Victor, Wei Long, William, Andrew and a girl that I her name I never knew. I won the won the game with $4650, all the railways and utility board.

On the way home, we played a very stupid passing message game. We were getting a lot of attention from the whole cabin until a women came to us and requested us to keep the volume down.

And when I reached home, I realized that I can actually upload pictures from my phone to the computer via another cable of mine. So cool. I will be uploading pictures that I took last time.

This sunset was taken on the first day of year 2009 at East Coast Park. Too bad, the clouds are blocking the Sun.

Jaslyn sent me a lame message today. It goes like this:

He came at night..




Explored my body..




Got on top of me..




Touched me..




Bit me..




Sucked..




Swallowed..




When he was satisfied..




He left..




I was hurt..




Damn mosquito!

I seriously do not feel like waking up today. Reached home past midnight yesterday to work on my CME project last night. It was suppose to be a group work and I ended up doing alone, but of course with a some help from Shindy. A lot of thing happened and I finally got my project printed out. I was actually kinda discourage when I saw other groups' work. But once I saw mine, I felt safe and secure. All my group members love it, especially the discriptions I have done for them, it was as though I was in their mind. The teacher on the other hand, love the quotes that were inside. My quote is from Leonardo da Vinci. He said, "Art is never finished, only abandoned." And I totally love it. Teacher said that ours might be one of the highest in class cause our work is original. Too bad that I cannot make it into a book, or teacher will give me full almost full marks.

Both yesterday and today I did something different from what I usually do, and it brought quite a bit of trouble and distractions. But these are nothing. It actually made my day filled with more fun and suprises. Therefore, be open to changes, or make it yourself, you will not know what kind of surprises youwill get.

HAPPY VALENTINE'S DAY TO ALL!

Just came back from my service, and it was awesome, though I kinda know what is it about and the message is not for me currently.

I went for all the prayer meeting this week and it was powerful. Wai Yin told me that do expect something from God if I go, so I got it, a few revelations. I will share it with you if you ask me, dun want to post this entry too long.

I also get to go for Poh's lesson this week. It was terrific. Poh is my church's guitarist and he is a professional, so better not underestimate him. One of the thing that I really learn from him was that being creative with your time with God during your quiet time. It was amazing. He also told us the difference between being interested and being committed things. The main point is that commitment is that there are no excuses, whether if it is rain or shine, you will still do it.

The prayer meeting also allow myself to get back together. Thank God for it. And by the way, the reason I went for the prayer meetings are not for the reward that the church give, but the reward that God gives. Amen.

Today's Valentine's Day was not successful. I failed to write the song that I was suppose to. The bookmark that Guang Xiang made only has his picture in it as all the brothers do not hav the time. The sparklers that were meant to suprise the sisters were not able to be lighted on time. We still hav fun in it though, and I also got a brownie from Luke. That is so sweet of him.

I am through for today. I am going to have to brownie now to make sure that I have a good dream tonight.

Sorry for leaving you out to rot for so long. No choice, I have to write English journal everyday. So you will not expect me to write the same things twice right?

Lets cut all the boring stuffs in school and go straight to the point. I went to look for my Mum today and she wanted to give me a hundred bunks to get myself at least one set of Chinese New Year clothes. But I did not want to accept it, not that it is too little, but I just feel that I should not be taking money from her when her income is already low. I told her that I will not accept a single cent from her but she insisted that I should a least take fifty bucks to get myself a top. I accepted it reluctantly and went to get my dinner. While I was eating, my mum caught me crying and asked me what happened. But it was actually the fifty dollars that she has given, I felt there was no point of me accepting that money. I insisted on giving it back to her, promising her that I will let her know if I have any need, and she took it back. When I was about to leave, I saw my mum's eyes being puffy and face being red. These are signs of my mum crying. I cannot help but tears starts flowing down once again when I walked towards the bus interchange. Have I done any wrong to my mum? But I know that I have let her down by not accepting it. She felt that it is

Today is my cell group multiplication day, whereby we are divided into two cell groups. It was held at Sheila's house condominium function room. The whole place was beautifully decorated and also very spacious. We played some games, sang a few praise and there was the appreciation ceremony. I got the loyal award, together with Wei Long, William, Andrew and of course Chaiern, the most loyal member in E456.

When the time came to announce the allocation of cell groups, everyone was really scared and anxious. Each of us is given a number, and as soon as your number is called you will know where you belong. I was the second to came out and know my new group members as soon as their names as their numbers are called. This was very aching period for me. Though I have not spend as much time with them, yet I have the feeling being with them when I view their blogs though my presence is not there. Their ups and downs, even things that they did not say in their blogs, I somehow experience it. True enough that I might feel left out most of the time, but I am blessed and glad to be in this cell group. I might not have much memories of it, but these little ones are precious to me. I will keep it dear to me.

Throughout the whole announcement, not a tear was shed from my eyes though I was anguished. But the moment I I know that Kengsern is not going to be in the same cell group as I am, my heart sank even deeper. Though I was expecting it, but I could not accept it. And whenever he come and talk to me just now, streams of tears stared flowing. I tried to walk away from him, but yet I still do want to talk to him. The reason I miss him so much is that he has truely set a print in my life, a big one. He was the only one I can relate to the most after Thomas, though there were some stuffs that I cannot speak to him about. But I am sure he knows what is it, but it is just that he want me to tell him personally. All I can say is that he is a very good leader and a friend. Thank you Kengsern.

Right now, I am in Wai Yin's cell group. But we have yet to know the new cell group number. All we know is E***. I believe that I am able toadapt into a new environment and be a great servant in it. To tell you the truth, tears are flowing as I posting now. I will miss you, E456.

First day of school today and was sent home due to unacceptable hairstyle. So I went to KFC to have my breakfast while reading Today newspaper.I cannot believe that I actually took more that two hours to read the paper and have my breakfast. I then went to have my haircut at standard hair salon. I took my time there looking through a magazine to find a suitable hairstyle to go to the school with. With that, I took slightly more than an hour in the salon. I am please with my hair now, though it would look nicer if there is a contrast in my hair colour. too bad I cannot dye my hair. I took my lunch upon my way home and here I am now. I will now go take a rest. Bye bye.

Yesterday was crazy. I went out to celebrate Countdown for Year 2009 at East Coast Park and tried out inline-skates(rollerblade) for the first time. I did fell a few times but everything was okay, except a few cuts here and there. Xuan Yi is incredible when he was skating. He seems like a different person to me. He even helped me with my skating. But there was a fall that seriously injured me, it a when I was going down the slope. Wei Xiang was ahead of me and fell. I was behind looking at him when I began to fall too, even better, in the same manner. I hurt my back then but I guess I should be okay. After which, we went further down the park and I was not able to catch up with them due to some reasons. First, I was not able to skate as fast. Second, I was dead tired due to the lack of sleep for the past two days. Third, my feet and ankle really hurts from the skates. I even "sleep-skate" on my way back with the others. Good thing that Chuen Heng and Xuan Yi was there to give me a push when I was sleeping. Thanks guys!

I dropped dead once we reached back to our camp while Aaron practice his guitar and the others went to get dinner. Chuen Heng bought my dinner for me last night. He indeed is a great brother. Thanks Bro!

As the countdown draws nearer, everyone in the park started playing with sparkles, we were no exception. It was magnificent. There were also red luminous objects levitating above the sea. Soon there was the countdown and there was the start of the year 2009. After which, we celebate Hui Shan's birthday and continued playing sparkles, which one of the sparkle bit hit in burnt Chaiern's eye. We were not sure of who who is responsible for it, but I should say that the fault belongs to everyone who played with the sparkle. So all I have to say is Sorry Chaiern.

The rest of the night was a bit dull, yet cooling and peaceful. We waited till the wake of the morning to witness the first sunrise of 2009. Unfortunately, the clouds were too thick due to the fireworks last night.

We went to have Macdonald's for breakfast and went seperate ways. I went to my Mum's house and died there from the pain of my back. When I woke up, I contacted Bee Hwa to return her skates to her. And in return, she brought me food from her grandma's birthday party. I was starving then so I really thank God for the food. And also Bee Hwa.

After that, I went to meet up with Josh to accompany him to have a hair cut and go home together. Thats all.

Have been working these few days to earn some money for my Chinese New Year clothes. It was really fun and dirty. Quite a lot has happened past few days.

My Grandpa was advice to go for for a heart bypass surgery by the doctor. And if he does so, his leg would have to be amputated to use a piece nerve to do the surgery. It will be quite a risky operation. Hopefully my family chose not to do the operation. As of right now, we are awaiting for further details from the doctor for what they have to say for my Grandpa's situation.

This year's Christmas was indeed different. Though I did not manage to bring any friends with me, but I manage to plant seeds into people's lives once again. During the gift exchange, I gave a note book and received a yellow lanyard in return. And when Guang Xiang sow a banana and received a monkey last year, his sister too received a monkey this year. By the way, I was the one that received the banana last year.

As for my Christmas, I was rotting at home with nothing to do. To kill time, I played my guitar, watch crazy videos, but none was dirty, and sing Christmas carols all alone at home.

26hours left for the year 2008 and it will be a whole new year. I will be celebrating the countdown with my cell group, staying overnight at east coast park.