Phew.. Just went to see the doctor to yesterday to ensure that my foot is okay yesterday. And the result, PERFECTLY FINE! The doctor find my accident very dramatic and that it's a miracle that I don't have any serious injury on me. The reason for my aches are due to the shock received by my muscles. Its said to be a sprain or something.

I studied a little on Chemistry yesterday. So stop saying that I don't study, or I will bite you. Grr.. Haha..

I'll will go one to share a revelation now on the post on the next post.

I fell, bounced and swung down the stairs from the top of the overhead bridge this morning. And I literally meant bounced and swung. Two parts of my body were injured, my left foot(not the ankle) and my left thumb. The foot was the one that really irritated me the whole day. It's now bandaged.

I've taken quite a few pictures these few days. really wish to up load them, but there seem to be some problem with my blog. And trust me, they are not about people any more. Well, not exactly.

Friday was my Mum's birthday, and I did not get to do anything for her this year. Tan Weiling's birthday was yesterday and still I did not celebrate it with her, though she had been asking me out for ages. I'm sorry guys. I'll try to make it up to you guys.

I just watch "Love of Siam." It's a good movie. Very touchy. I watched it through Youtube by the way.

I'll be having my O' level English Oral tomorrow. Not that I worry about failing, just that I want to do well for my oral. I'm aiming for 36 again. Wish me all the best.

I have finally finished reading Eclipse. But frankly speaking, the story is getting more boring each time. It's so predictable on what's going to happen next. But the story is still worth reading. It adopted a few words which can be applied in my English compositions.

I finish reading Eclipse in the school library ultimately, and hence went ahead to borrow Breaking Dawn.

Just something interesting to add in, while I was reading, I saw Tommy with his classmates. but he gives me an impression of maturity among his friends. A sense of authority. Perhaps it's due to his circle of friends he hangs out with. I always do feel a little jealous of them. But I'm fine with it.

It has been a century since I last played basketball with my friends, which was seriously crazy. But I did injure some people as usual. The funny this was that I kept having my arms around a guy, whom I barely know for a day, when I was trying snatch his ball. He was physically smaller than I am, very agile. He is a very good player I would say.

I just listened to some songs. Here's a few. hope you enjoy them.

I checked my yahoo email today. Pretty scary I would say. It has been a while since I take a look at it. But it's irritating that most of the emails are from Friendster. Some emails are scams to trick you into telling you to give them your bank account number. Kinda annoying I would say. I thought there was anything interesting inside. My hotmail cannot be open, not too sure why.

I think I really need to find someone to push me to study. I just simply don't have any fighting spirit. And it have to take more than one person to push me, take a look at my size. Samuel is helping, and I appreciate and love him for that, but I think he alone cannot push me.

My internet is getting more lag. Especially when I am logging in to Facebook and Blogger, they get on my nerves when ever i cant see the full page. Therefore I can't put any pictures. But I'm sure many are happy about it.

It has been official that I flunked my prelims. I just can't find the push within me. Any help here?

there is something wrong with my blog

I'm going to fail my prelims. I can see it. Right now I only left with 2 papers. Science Paper 1(MCQ) and Paper 5(practical). I'm not even sure about my practical, and there's no way for me to practice it. Argh..

I just found the chords that I need for cell group tomorrow, but haven't try out the chords. These chords are found in the forums so not too sure if it's reliable.

I'm also kinda sick these few days. Liters of phlegm are in my body. I'm not too sure if I can help Wai Yin to bring up the atmosphere by singing. But I'll try. Just pray that I'm healed, and the whole cell group as well. They are the ones that bring down the presence of God. I am only there to motivate you guys.

And I was suppose to be at Shelby's house playing with her kitten, Sushi. But unfortunately Shindy fell sick and we postpone it to later date. But I'll be going for bible study later. It'll be great I tell you.

I'll off to play my guitar now. Bye.

Prelims started this week. Had a few papers already, but don't think I did very well. I'll just have to trust God and wait for the results.

Just watched a few videos, but none of them suits to be displayed here. But don't worry, I'll still try to keep you guys updated.

This week will be Festival Of Praise(FOP) and City Harvest 20th Anniversary. It'll be awesome. I'm really looking forward for it, especially the anniversary services. Specially designed CHC glass block will be given to attendance of the 1st anniversary service, and I'll be there to get it, though there will be other gifts as well.

Before I forget, I went to the gym a few times this week and injured my right middle finger. If you wanna ask me what happened, I was carrying the weight, but Winston said something that made me drop the weight on my finger. Ouch.. So it's a little painful when I bent it and I still cant bend it all the way down. Kinda irritated by it cause I can't hold anything without bending it, or else it'll seem like I'm scolding someone. So do pray for me yea? it still hurts. Ow.. And I'll be clenching my right fist from now till my finger regains it's energy. So don't go thinking I'm angry or anything. Ow again.

A new wave is coming up. A new song. A new Chapter. It is beating in my heart. It's placing a zest of joy in my life. It's swirling within me, as though calling out to me. And this surely will renew my life, turning my old self and set a new rhythm to it. But still, some things are hard to let go.

I happen to saw this video on Chaiern's blog. It'll totally spoil your appetite so warning, DO NOT EAT WHILE APPRECIATING THIS VID. Thank you. Hope you enjoy it.

Don't ask me about today cause I did nothing interesting.

There isn't anything to post about today. I'm just here to notify everyone that my blog start up again.

By the way, these few days have been really tough for me. I can actually feel being stretched and that everyone around me is pushing in to encourage me while on the verge of giving up on me. I really appreciate these people a lot and really don't want to put all your efforts to waste. This time is very different from the encouragements given in the past, but this time, everything and everyone come pushing and encouraging this big guy at the same time. I am impressed, amazed and moved by this. Surely this is beyond the ordinary, this is God's doing I'm trying my best now not to forsake everyone's hope one me.

I'll try to keep you guys updated on this blog and if you have any encouraging words or quotes to tell me regarding any post, for instance this one, tell me using the comments so I can keep track of it and come back to be inspired again and again in the future. Thanks.

I have no adventure to tell of today as I stayed at home all day. Come to think about it, I never did. At most I will just post some videos I viewed today. I did have some fun the few days before. I will just mention them briefly.

Friday's paper is a goner as I was sleeping. Lets hope for the better for my prelim and O' level. Then I went for NCC as I do not want to sweat. So I went to admin and played with Gabriel's laptop and watch some videos. Happy tree friends, guitar and dance videos to be exact. I then went for cell group meeting which was terrific. We have to write down our desires. As for mine, I just wrote it down today. I want to greater serve God and people with what I have, and I want to go to TP.

Yesterday was wonderful. Accompanied Wei Lin with her bible study with Natalie and Jaslyn, which inspired me to give bible study a little. Met up the rest of the cell group members to go for Jurong West service. It was truely a blessing as pastor talked about the 5 smooth stones of David. We then rushed for the bus for the Expo service. Dr. Kim Sung Hae was really cute and interesting, though to tell you the truth, I missed out what she saying half the time.

Family photo when I was young. Missed the times.
Ronson, Dad, Johnson, Benson, Mum, Me.

4 brothers together.
Myself, Ronson, Benson, Johnson.

My mum in her twenties. Pretty right?

This boy is awesome

This dance troup as well. Their synchronization is very good.

These are some interesting commercials

Today's Physics and Social Studies paper was difficult, or maybe it was cause I was sleeping half of the time. Well, I was really tired then. I guess I am going to fail then.

Deyuan, Winston, Chen Sheng, Alan, Samuel and I had lunch in the canteen today. And guess what, I was too tired to eat. The food was in front of me and I literally forced myself to eat it. Normally I will polished off the plates, but there were obvious leftovers today.

We then went to practice our volleyball, or maybe you can call it play. Instead of joining in the fun, I was resting under the baking hot Sun, playing with a paper plane(sorry but I tend to be a little random sometimes, especially when I am tired) and joined them after that. Joshua then hitch on, played tennis and left for tuition together with Dennis and Zi Yu. Everything ended at around 5pm and everyone went home.

Mid-year exam has already started and everyone is getting ready for the papers. Just today, Shelby asked a few of us out to study for Social studies and Physics. They woke me up at 11 am to meet them up at Princess Mac and I actually reached there at 1.30 pm. Not forgetting Eleen calling me at 11am as well to invite me to her house, but I decline the invitation.

There were Shelby, Deyuen, Chen Sheng, Donovan, Samuel, Winston and myself there studying, or better to say that they were studying. But I did study a little, so do not say that I was idling there.

Studies aside, we also played some silly but fun games. We played "Hangman" and "True or Dare." Though I will not give your the contents of the game. But it certainly was fun and it has been quite long since I last played these games.

We took some pictures as well, though I am not allowed to post any of the photos. In fact, I cannot post any pictures of my friends as they do not like it. But seriously, I wonder what joy is there when we cannot share it with others. I understand that some of them do not like their pictures taken, but worse yet posting and sharing it with others. But you guys cannot just ask me to change my post and take away the pictures just like that. This is my blog. I want to share my moments with others, since I do not have much myself. And quit telling each other the pictures I have of them. I want them to come and take a look at it themselves and smile, not hearing from someone and think that I post some "unglam" pictures of them. I have seen better "worse" pictures, they are in Chaiern's blog, and people enjoyed the pictures and the ones with their pictures taken just smile in embarrassment a little and got on with it. I have actually thought of doing an e-album to keep the memories and share it with everyone. But what is the point if no one appreciates it?

By the way, I am going to say this though I know some of you may thing I 'bhb', I appreciates people taking pictures of me, I do not mind. I mean if every picture I am about to post have to seek the permission of someone else defeats the purpose of me posting it and even more having a blog. Below are just some pictures that I can post.

Draft of Bee Hwa's birthday card.
Most of the idea came from Brandon.

I took a picture of myself when we were studying just now.
I also took pictures of myself with them, but they just warned me not to post it.

Saw this cat napping on my way home.
Cute isn't it? Though "unglam" for a cat.
Do you think I should seek permission of the cat before posting this pic?

HAPPY BIRTHDAY WEI LIN!!
HAPPY BIRTHDAY BEE HWA!!
HAPPY MOTHER'S DAY TO ALL MOTHERS!!

Met up with Natalie and Jaslyn in the noon to do some cards. Then had an inspiring discipleship with Yong Xiu. Though it was about rising up, which I do not think I am ready yet because firstly, I am not discipline in my punctuality. Secondly, I do not have a good countenance. Thirdly, I am not a good example. I am sorry Wai Yin.

After the service, I kinda neglected William as had Bee Hwa's birthday to prepare. Sorry.

We had whole lot of fun and we replaced flour with water this time round and it was really great, besides the fact that some water balloons fell off the second floor. How I wish that my birthday would be this exciting, but it never did.

Wai Yin talked to the core members before we all make our way home. She felt burdened for the cell group's discipline, which was what I had in mind as well. She urged me once again to rise up but I remain silent. Natalie too urged me to rise up but I told her the reasons why I do not think I should. The fact is that I would like to help Wai Yin with the cell group as I am too burdened for my leader, for my cell group. Just that I do not think it is time for me yet. But then to say, "When is?!"

It was around 10-ish pm when we left the place and I went to look for my mum. Waited for the the second hand to struck at twelve before wishing my mum a Happy Mother's Day. After which I came home.

The English paper today was difficult, or was it just that I was dreaming? I did not remember what did I write half of the time. Come to think about it, I never remember any of the papers I have done. Have I been taking papers unknowingly? Awesome! But I do remember my Paper 1, Section A, I chose the topic "Values." I wonder what did I write. At least I am aware that I got back my guitar. Took a little pictures while waiting for the papers to start.



I went to meet up with William, together with Katherine, Eleen and their friends. We went to his house and he told us to wait for us at the fitness area which he took 55 minutes to meet us. Good thing there was an old lady chatting with me with her baby grandson, Jarren. I think that is how you spell his name though.

I was really tired today. I did some silly things like walking around Bao Wang's flat, which is 20 storeys high. William and Martin went all over the place to find me. They found me eventually and William realize that I was really tired and bored. So he kept persuading me to go home and sent me off at the bus stop. Then everything else went off as usual.

Friday
No school on Friday, but there was the Men's Meeting. I was late and had to sit in the overflow room and trust me, it was nothing compare to the auditorium itself. The topic was rather confidential as it was more of a men's talk. After which I went to Bedok Mac and met up with Natalie, Ying En, Victor, Kenneth and Xiao Yong. I did not expect to meet them, especially seeing Daryl and his three other female classmates there as well. Sorry for not remembering your names if you are reading this.

Went to Kenneth's house, did nothing, and back to Mac again to meet Wai Yin and the others for study group and tuition. Donovan came to study with us as well, though we both agreed that it is not a very conducive place to study in as it was noisy and cramped. By the way, I saw Kelvin, Eleen, Man Ho, Katherine two other Ping Yians studying there as well, though they were not with us. Wei Lin used my phone to take pictures.



I was not studying over there, instead, walking around and chatting with people. But Wai Yin manage to get me to sit down and do my work after giving bible study to Ying En.

After the whole tuition, everyone went home and I went to look for my Dar Dar William to do some things. Then long story, which followed by me almost missing my last bus to go home.

Saturday and Sunday
I was seriously blown away by Dr Stephan K. Munsey during service on Saturday and Sunday. Trust me, he was incredible. Instead of preaching, he acted out the sermon, as in he acting it out without any props or equipment. He modernized the gospel to relate it to us. It was awesome. I am really looking forward for him to come again and I will ask Samuel Lee along.

Today
Decided not to go to school today but do some self study at home. Mid-year exam is starting tomorrow with English paper 1 and 2 first, followed by A. Maths paper 1 on Thurs. I will go going of to cut my hair now. See you soon.

I am back once again. Not a lot of stuff happened, just that I sprained my ankle when I was playing basketball, and this took longer than the ones I had before to heal. It has been roughly a week since then and I can still fell the pain. I even ran for my 2.4km run with it. Good thing it does not hurt when I was running. Perhaps it was because I was walking then. But I think I did manage to get a pass for it, just a pass will do.

As for my confidence level, I am building it up slowly once again. I believe that my confidence this time will not falter, at least not any time soon. I am trying to bring up my favor in singing once again as well. Or maybe not the favor but the yearn to improve. Hold on, not just only will I improve on my singing, but my studies and my motivation. Though the motivation part have to put some effort into it.

I too want to improve my relationship with people and God. But I have to apologize to some people that I have done wrong to by staying silent and giving some sort of attitude problem. I just wanted to calm down a bit and sort out some of the things, just like the past. And about not being open up to you guys, there are some things that I am not ready to let it out to you guys. I know it sound kinda selfish but I will try as these things takes time. Sometimes I just do not know how to bring it up to you guys. Sorry.

And lastly about today, Boon Kim drove me up the walls when he kept asking teacher questions and chatting with her. I eventually quit doing the paper though there were questions left unread.
But sincere apologies to those in the class when I showed an attitude problem just now.


These are just random pictures

2007 Birthday Card

2008 Birthday Card

Class Logo that I have drawn

My lovely cousin Ching Fong that asked me out to Escape theme park, thouh most of the ride were not open. Sigh..

I am back. My apologies for not blogging for such a long time. I did not have any chance to use the computer for the past few days. I gonna skip the long stories. All I have to say now is that I am kinda stressed up in school. Having my Ez-link card confiscated, teachers demands, and my mum having to come to school tomorrow to meet the teachers to collect my report book makes me really distressed. The worst thing is that I cannot go for any of the prayer meetings this week.

I have also grown fatter these few days. Actually, I have seen it coming as I am not doing anything. Most probably I will start exercising again.

Time seems to be running very fast in secondary 5 life. Even though the hardships are there for our good, but is it not too much? Assignments cannot be finished even if I make an effort to do them. Sometimes I truly think that it might b better if I self study at home. But teachers have yet to finish the syllabus. All I want now is some breathing space, is that too much to ask for? But I do believe that things are going to turn out well.

These few days were depressing. I only pass two subjects for my Common Test, which is Additional Maths and Mathematics. I did not get through the auditions for Ping Yi Idol(my school) and the cast for the movie "Fighting Spiders", which is today. But everything is still quite passable. I seriously feel like screaming at the top of my voice, letting everything out. I think it is perhaps the weather and the stress I am getting in school. Though there were some pleasant and laughable times as well.

I will start off with what happened today, summarize the events later on and ending off with the pictures that I have took.

Was late meeting Weiling and Shimin today for cell group, but had fun in the train. We took the train to the new train station that opened just recently, Pioneer, to go Victor's house for cell group. We bought our lunch there and walked our way to our destination. We ate our lunch and hang around while waiting for the rest to arrive.Weiling asked me a question that put me on the spot. She asked whats the thing dangling under Victor's dog's tail(it is a male). I was speechless as I have no idea on how to explain it to her. Cell group started late today, which makes everything in a rush. I then excuse myself and went to meet Shelby and Shindy for the audition for "Fighting Spider" at Marina Square. I only had two hours to memorise my lines. But I did not get in a lost my words on stage as plans changed to that two person will act together instead of one during my turn. I felt that I manipulated my partner for not getting in. Shelby tried as well but too did not get in because of her partner. Felt dreadful for the rest of the day, we went Muji and proceed home after that. Did I mention that Vivianne was there as well? We met her by coincidence and she got in. Congrats Vivianne and all the best for the following rounds.

Sometimes it is pretty silly on how people are able to fight over little issues. There was a time I saw two uncles having a dispute over alighting the bus. I do not have the details of it. All I know was that one uncle was in the way as the uncle behind wanted to alight. Without a word, he pushed the uncle in front of him. When they were at he bus stop, they threw words at one another, and before you know what was happening, words turned into punches. We might think that it is absurd, two men in their forties fighting? Childish. But though we may think like this now, sometimes we ourselves also do some foolish things that we all we can do is smile at them when we recall them in the future. I mean we have no point baring a grudge over this kind of this right?

Last Thursday was perhaps the worst day this week. I was late for school and had to copy the whole code of conduct. I got the news that my school was hosting a Ping Yi Idol. I had no preparation and sang "I lay my love on you" this was the only song I know how. I was then rejected. The teachers said that my voice is too weak as I sort of overdid it. But Shelby And Hydir did got in. I went to Guang Xiang house later and he taught me guitar. I totally appreciates it as this brightens my whole again.

So here are the pictures, enjoy.

I met Yvonne and Biqi(my childhood friends) by coincidence.
Went to Tampines Mall Ajisan with them.

Yvonne reminds me of Kristy

This was taken in class

Mei Foong

Divya

Pei Ling

Fauzan

Chen Sheng

Alan Wee

Donovan

These two pictures were edited,
but I think they look really nice.

Shindy

These two pictures were taken while I was waiting for bus at Expo.
Was really bored then.